There is a picture of me; I am about 20 years old, sitting on a boat in Greece. I was thin but even back then, although the picture oozes confidence I had issues with my body.
I am not what you would call Fat – but I am what I would call Fat.
Current credentials – 32yrs 5’9.5” – 163lbs size 10/12 (closer to 12) waist 32.5” (Urgh!) hips 39” (double urgh) and my bloody neck is 13.5” is that also fat????
Issues with – Wine, Cake, Chocolate, Sweets, Ice Cream, Cheese, Pasta, Eating son’s dinner, then eating my own dinner, not doing enough exercise, general gluttony and laziness……
When I had my son, I was planning a mild pain relief natural birth. This changed slightly to being induced 12days over official due date, proceeded by 4 days of nothing really happening then an emergency C-Section. This procedure was obviously performed by someone who wanted to get home for their supper. The surgeon left me with a hideous rather high incision and a lovely (only seen on larger people) over hang! Christ I’m revealing a lot in this blog. I’m sure it’s worse in your imagination, however, there is not a hope in hell of a picture being produced, your imagination will have to continue to repulse you.
After my son was born I struggled even more with my weight issues. I am fine with all areas of my body (even my slightly uneven sized boobs, and my rather flabby upper arms) but my stomach is beginning to really affect me. I am considering surgery. I had a discussion with my Dr, she explained that unfortunately all the dieting in the world will not help with the mark (read hang) left by my C-Section. All that said I still need to lose the weight and, what I need to do it is a good dose of will power. I was fine over Lent and lost 8lbs but, since then 4lbs have crept back on. I am now off the booze, chocs, cake and all the other aforementioned crap, I miss it terribly already.
I am not a moderation kind of girl so that options defunct. On the 18th March 2007 I decided to stop my 20 cigs a day habit. I have never touched another cigarette. Why can’t I do this with the Cake!!!!!!!!
Today whilst working and blogging I am also researching tummy tucks. My Husband and I have decided that we are not going to have another baby (that’s a whole other blog – why do some people look at me open-mouthed and retort, “that’s so sad” “but you want another one” “you can’t just have one” “an only child is a lonely child”??) therefore the previous – “oh well it doesn’t matter I can sort it once I have another child” argument is redundant.
So here I go Onwards and Downwards – Target Credentials – 30yrs 5’9.5” – 145lbs size 10 (closer to 8) waist 28” hips 34” and my bloody neck 12” is that possible????
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